I am so happy to be writing today. I feel like I deserve a t-shirt like this,
All kidding aside, there are some nasty germs out there. Be sure to steer clear of the infected to avoid being knocked on your butt for several days or becoming a zombie, depending on what germs you are exposed to.
Needless to say, I have not been running at all recently. I know the next couple of weeks will be rough as I work to build back to pre-Germ Fest levels. In the past, I would use this as an excuse to give up. I can just hear “old Andrea” now…Why go back to running group? You are so far behind, it is useless to try to catch up. You are not going to be able to keep up, so why bother?
I know what “old Andrea” would say because these thoughts were running through my mind yesterday as I was beginning to feel better. I was basically giving myself every excuse possible to give up on this crazy idea of running. A funny thing happened while part of my brain was trying to justify being a loser and giving up…I decided that giving up wasn’t an option. I looked at a picture of myself after my first 5k in the fall and a picture of myself after the Diva Dash 5k. Sure, I finished my first 5k, but I was miserable. A combination of the beginning of a gout flare and not being quite ready to complete a 5k made for a rough day. I still beat my goal time for that race despite the odds against me. There was no smiling at the end of that race. I had wanted to give up before the turnaround.
I completed the Diva Dash not even two months later. I ended that race with a smile on my face and excited that I had a new personal record. I realized a few things when I looked at the picture of myself smiling like a crazy runner (in purple running tights) after I had just ran 3.1 miles.
- I have lost more weight since starting running than I did in the previous year
- If I can go out running in tights and a skirt, I am fearless and can do anything
- I like to run
- I really like myself more when I make positive lifestyle choices…like running
“Old Andrea’s” thoughts were shut-down pretty quickly after looking at the goofy picture of myself smiling after the Diva Dash. I don’t want to go back to how things were. I am so close to being at the weight required for transplant. I will reach that weight this year possibly if I continue to work. No more excuses…the positive changes continue.
I will be at running group on Saturday, despite the fact that the Crossfit clinic scares me, lol. I will complete my run. No, I won’t go as far as the group is scheduled to, but hey, I just survived Germ Fest 2014 and lived to run again.
The important thing is to just keep running…
Well and to to avoid The Revenge of Germ Fest.